Alright Mommies, I'm going to preface this and say that I absolutely love being a Mom and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. That being said, Can I go on a vacation?! hahaha
Damon has hit a phase where he throws fits....quite a bit. Some days are better than others, and this week has been A LOT better than last week. Last week I thought I was going to snap. We took away his binky and his bottle and those have made a huge difference. Usually the binky makes him happy if he gets upset, now that that's gone, the fits have hit....hard. If he gets told No, or doesn't get his way, he has a meltdown. I just walk away and let him work it out and when he calms down, I try to distract him from whatever he wanted. If he does something mean, he goes in time out for a minute where he throws his fit, then I come back and get him and tell him why it's mean to hit mommy or throw toys or whatever it was. I feel like it's a pretty good system and it works well for us. He's slowly learning how to deal with his frustrations. Me on the other hand, I'm starting to lose it a little bit! haha There have been times when I put both babies down and just go in another room and close the door for a minute. Rafe has been super constipated and is teething and has just been so fussy lately. He can't take a binky real well because of his tongue so it's hard to soothe him. Add that to the cranky two year old and my days are really fun;) They usually nap at the same time, but all last week and this week they have been on exact opposite schedules. This isn't so bad because most times I'm just dealing with one kid. Especially in the morning. Rafe's afternoon naps are really short because Damon's so loud and whenever I put him upstairs away from the noise, it's almost too quite for him, or Damon will want to go up and get him....which results in me trying to pull him away from the stairs, which causes crying, and the baby to wake up haha.
Anyways, I just needed a little vent shesh and to get these thoughts down. It helps me for some reason when I can type this all out. I know someday I'll look back and laugh at these times. Each day seems to be a little better than the one before, so that is awesome. But the last 6 weeks or so have just worn me out. (that's when we all got sick, sleeping sucked for all, fits started, and teething started.)
Right now they are both sleeping and it's wonderful. I get a little peace and quite and can do something I want, which is always nice;) I know there are lots of you that can relate to me right now, if you have any advice leave a comment or write on my Facebook!
Love you Mommies!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Rafe William Morley
Hey Mommies!
It has been far too long since I have updated my blogs. We got rid of our internet since I graduated and felt like I didn't need the internet anymore. I missed updating my blog, but find having internet can be too distracting for me. So it's nice to have it back....kinda;)
Well I wanted to put an update because this for me is sort of a journal. I put very personal thoughts and feelings on here for my own record, and to hope that maybe someone can relate to what I'm feeling or what's been happening in my life and with my kids. I hope to be better at updating this, and I would love to get feedback and comments from anyone who actually reads my ramblings! p.s. this is a long and detailed post!
SO in my last post, I was 33 weeks pregnant. My whole pregnancy with Rafe I was worried about the delivery. Most of you know how my first delivery went, and I didn't want the same experience with the second baby. Knowing that Damon was well over 8 lbs, my Dr. told me that vbac's are easier with a little smaller babies. So I needed to get him out before he was too big. (He didn't say that, but I knew that's what he was implying). At my 38 weeks apt I had him strip my membranes with the hope to get things started. I felt like I finally had everything ready and my house had been cleaned 20 times with Clorox wipes haha! I was ready to get this baby here and stop thinking about how the delivery was going to go, and just get it done!
My mom talked to me about taking castor oil. I heard a lot of negative things about it and lots of people just said it made them sick from both ends. Didn't sound that appealing. But it worked for my mom every. single. time. So I had her buy a little bottle and she came over to my house and I was thinking about taking it. It was January 5th about 2 p.m. Damon had just woke up from his nap, so I was getting him something to eat. I just had a good lunch of tortilla chips and queso dip with a dr. pepper. Really healthy I know;) Little did I know that was going to be my last meal for 24 hours. haha. I went to the fridge to get Damon some food, opened the door, and my water broke.
Me "uhhh, I think my water just broke!"
Mom "No way! Are you serious?!"
Me "......uhhh yup! That's not me peeing my pants!"
I really did have to stop and think about it before I called Dan and told him what happened. It was so cool to have that moment that you always see in the movies and stuff. Dan came home, I jumped in the shower. (Which was pointless. It just keeeeeeps coming!)
Off we went to the hospital. I was expecting contractions to start soon....but nothing was happening. They checked me in, I had a few contractions here and there and started walking around and bounced on the yoga ball. Nothing too strong. When you're doing a VBAC you don't really want to be induced. Something about pitocin increasing the risks to a VBAC, so I was really nervous to start it. After talking to my Dr. I felt more confident about it. It was 11:30 at night and I had been there since about 3 in the afternoon. I didn't want to start creeping up the 24 hr mark and not have enough progress. So they started Pitocin and I started having pretty intense contractions. Knowing from my last labour, my body has trouble relaxing and doing it's thing. After 3 hours I was in a lot of pain and they were coming so frequently and hard that I was ready for an epidural. I had little food in my system, it was almost 3 AM and had been in labour for 12 hours already and was getting worn out before the real work began. So I had the nurse come in and check me.
3 cm. 80% effaced.
That's what I came into the hospital at! What the heck is going on?! I was pretty defeated. I thought I would be at a 6 or something. So I was tired, and hungry, and ready for the epidural. Once the epidural was in, I could relax and get some rest. I wanted to talk to my Dr. because I needed a little pep talk. He came in around 4:30 and reassured me that even though things seemed to be going slow, things were going good. The baby looked good and was in the right position.....but he was face up. Same as Damon. That's why it was hard to progress. In the end, I couldn't push Damon out because he was too big and he was face up. SO all my worries about having to have another c section were coming back full force. Even if the baby was a little smaller, could I still do it? I was too tired to even think about it so I tried to go back to sleep. around 6:15 I started to feel some pressure. I was at a 7 and fully effaced. 45 minutes later I was ready to push. I had maybe 2 hours of sleep and was exhausted. Luckily my adrenaline was starting to kick in and I was ready to do this.
After about 15 min. of pushing, my Dr. had to leave to go into surgery. He told me he would be back in 20 min. about 45 min. later he came back. I pushed through the pressure while he was gone, but was so tired. About 30 more minutes of pushing and he had to leave again. The lady in the other room was going natural and was crowning. Totally understandable. He was back about 20 minutes later. Each time he left I felt so abandoned. I needed him to be there. He promised he would be there through the whole thing. Having a vbac has risks and I was worried if he wasn't there something bad would happen. The second time he came back he was there for good. I pushed...and pushed...and pushed. I wanted to give up so many times. I was so tired and felt like I wasn't making any progress. According to the dr and nurses I was pushing the correct way, but because he was face up, it's just harder. I didn't know how much longer I could push and part of me just wanted to throw in the towel. My kids have huge heads and like to come face up...doesn't make it very fun for me! haha luckily I stuck with it and after about 2 and a half hours of pushing on and off- little Rafe finally made his big appearance at 9:33 am on January 6th weighing in at 7.11 and 21 1/2". I was so glad that he was finally here!
It has been far too long since I have updated my blogs. We got rid of our internet since I graduated and felt like I didn't need the internet anymore. I missed updating my blog, but find having internet can be too distracting for me. So it's nice to have it back....kinda;)
Well I wanted to put an update because this for me is sort of a journal. I put very personal thoughts and feelings on here for my own record, and to hope that maybe someone can relate to what I'm feeling or what's been happening in my life and with my kids. I hope to be better at updating this, and I would love to get feedback and comments from anyone who actually reads my ramblings! p.s. this is a long and detailed post!
SO in my last post, I was 33 weeks pregnant. My whole pregnancy with Rafe I was worried about the delivery. Most of you know how my first delivery went, and I didn't want the same experience with the second baby. Knowing that Damon was well over 8 lbs, my Dr. told me that vbac's are easier with a little smaller babies. So I needed to get him out before he was too big. (He didn't say that, but I knew that's what he was implying). At my 38 weeks apt I had him strip my membranes with the hope to get things started. I felt like I finally had everything ready and my house had been cleaned 20 times with Clorox wipes haha! I was ready to get this baby here and stop thinking about how the delivery was going to go, and just get it done!
My mom talked to me about taking castor oil. I heard a lot of negative things about it and lots of people just said it made them sick from both ends. Didn't sound that appealing. But it worked for my mom every. single. time. So I had her buy a little bottle and she came over to my house and I was thinking about taking it. It was January 5th about 2 p.m. Damon had just woke up from his nap, so I was getting him something to eat. I just had a good lunch of tortilla chips and queso dip with a dr. pepper. Really healthy I know;) Little did I know that was going to be my last meal for 24 hours. haha. I went to the fridge to get Damon some food, opened the door, and my water broke.
Me "uhhh, I think my water just broke!"
Mom "No way! Are you serious?!"
Me "......uhhh yup! That's not me peeing my pants!"
I really did have to stop and think about it before I called Dan and told him what happened. It was so cool to have that moment that you always see in the movies and stuff. Dan came home, I jumped in the shower. (Which was pointless. It just keeeeeeps coming!)
Off we went to the hospital. I was expecting contractions to start soon....but nothing was happening. They checked me in, I had a few contractions here and there and started walking around and bounced on the yoga ball. Nothing too strong. When you're doing a VBAC you don't really want to be induced. Something about pitocin increasing the risks to a VBAC, so I was really nervous to start it. After talking to my Dr. I felt more confident about it. It was 11:30 at night and I had been there since about 3 in the afternoon. I didn't want to start creeping up the 24 hr mark and not have enough progress. So they started Pitocin and I started having pretty intense contractions. Knowing from my last labour, my body has trouble relaxing and doing it's thing. After 3 hours I was in a lot of pain and they were coming so frequently and hard that I was ready for an epidural. I had little food in my system, it was almost 3 AM and had been in labour for 12 hours already and was getting worn out before the real work began. So I had the nurse come in and check me.
3 cm. 80% effaced.
That's what I came into the hospital at! What the heck is going on?! I was pretty defeated. I thought I would be at a 6 or something. So I was tired, and hungry, and ready for the epidural. Once the epidural was in, I could relax and get some rest. I wanted to talk to my Dr. because I needed a little pep talk. He came in around 4:30 and reassured me that even though things seemed to be going slow, things were going good. The baby looked good and was in the right position.....but he was face up. Same as Damon. That's why it was hard to progress. In the end, I couldn't push Damon out because he was too big and he was face up. SO all my worries about having to have another c section were coming back full force. Even if the baby was a little smaller, could I still do it? I was too tired to even think about it so I tried to go back to sleep. around 6:15 I started to feel some pressure. I was at a 7 and fully effaced. 45 minutes later I was ready to push. I had maybe 2 hours of sleep and was exhausted. Luckily my adrenaline was starting to kick in and I was ready to do this.
After about 15 min. of pushing, my Dr. had to leave to go into surgery. He told me he would be back in 20 min. about 45 min. later he came back. I pushed through the pressure while he was gone, but was so tired. About 30 more minutes of pushing and he had to leave again. The lady in the other room was going natural and was crowning. Totally understandable. He was back about 20 minutes later. Each time he left I felt so abandoned. I needed him to be there. He promised he would be there through the whole thing. Having a vbac has risks and I was worried if he wasn't there something bad would happen. The second time he came back he was there for good. I pushed...and pushed...and pushed. I wanted to give up so many times. I was so tired and felt like I wasn't making any progress. According to the dr and nurses I was pushing the correct way, but because he was face up, it's just harder. I didn't know how much longer I could push and part of me just wanted to throw in the towel. My kids have huge heads and like to come face up...doesn't make it very fun for me! haha luckily I stuck with it and after about 2 and a half hours of pushing on and off- little Rafe finally made his big appearance at 9:33 am on January 6th weighing in at 7.11 and 21 1/2". I was so glad that he was finally here!
He was pretty beat up so a lot of the brand new baby pics are actually kinda scary. I hate even looking at them but it's the only ones I have so I don't want to delete them. I had blood vessels that burst in my face and neck and shoulders so I looked pretty scary as well haha.
Looking back and remembering that day and how hard it was to push out a pretty good sized baby face up, I don't know if I would want to go that route again! haha I know that might sound crazy to some of you. I don't know if it was the lack of food and sleep and my dr leaving my side so much and having to push for such a long time...but I just don't know if I could do it again. There are definite pro's and con's to both. The healing time on a vaginal delivery is so quick! C sections take forever. and you can't pick up your baby by yourself for the first little while and you're pretty sore for a few weeks. I was up and moving and feeling great like a few days after Rafe. C sections take away the labor, the dialating and effacing. You know when your baby will be born. You don't have to push for hours. Whenever I have my third baby, I will have a lot to think about.
I hear women's birth stories about quick and fairly easy labors and I'm so jealous. I wish I could do that. I just think that my body has a hard time relaxing enough to do it's own thing naturally. I feel like I need an epidural because that's the only way I progress. I need pitocin to get things moving. and both times I've had to push for well over 2 hours. It's hell. Having babies is hard work! haha
If there are any mom's out there who have had babies who are face up, I would love some advice. How was it for you? And same for any mom's who have done VBACS. Some VBACS go so smoothly for some and it doesn't matter how much their baby weighs or if they go over their due date or anything. Is it just my body type? Is it just hard for me to deliver babies? I wish someone could just tell me what to do. I'm not pregnant and I'm not even thinking about having a third child right now, but when that time comes, I don't want to stress the whole pregnancy about what's going to happen when it's game time! Anyways, this is where I ramble. Thank you for those who have read this far. I know it's been super long and super detailed. But like I said, it's kinda a journal for me;)
so feel free to comment and leave your thoughts with me!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
33 Weeks Pregnant
I swear this pregnancy has flown by...until now. It's starting to come to a stop I feel like. Sometimes I feel like I'm due any day, but I'm still 7 weeks away from my due date! It doesn't seem close enough. But at the same time, I've been stressing about the delivery. If you don't know what happened with my first baby, you can read all about it on this blog. You'll just have to go back to one of my first posts. ANYWAYS! As some of you know, I'm going for a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean). I'm pretty nervous about it, but I know a few women who have had successful VBACS so that gives me hope.
There are some days when I just want to schedule a c section so I don't have to play the what if game. But I don't want to voluntarily put my body through that. I want to try a vbac, and if it fails, it fails. But at least I tried. I'm just excited for our little boy to be here, no matter how he comes.
There are some days when I just want to schedule a c section so I don't have to play the what if game. But I don't want to voluntarily put my body through that. I want to try a vbac, and if it fails, it fails. But at least I tried. I'm just excited for our little boy to be here, no matter how he comes.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
22 weeks Pregnant!!
Well Hello there! Sorry it's been forever since I have updated my blog! Time seems to be flying by!
Today I am 22 weeks pregnant, and I can't believe it's flying by so quick! It seems like just yesterday I found out I was expecting!
I'm really lucky that I don't get sick when I am pregnant, so this has been a breeze! With the exception of Damon trying to sit on my or elbowing/kicking my tummy, everything has been great! I'm feeling our little guy kick more and more. My placenta is on the front side of my tummy so I wasn't feeling him there for a while, but now he's definitely making sure he's known. He must know I'm talking about him right now because he's going crazy!!
Some days it doesn't even feel like I'm pregnant. When I look in the mirror, i'm surprised at how big I am getting, but i'm just glad I don't feel it! I have lots of energy and am loving spending time running around with Damon and taking him to playdates. I know I gotta take advantage of this while I can because in just a few months i'm going to be so uncomfortable. That's the stage of pregnancy I don't look forward to.
So I want to hear some opinions on delivery options. I know there are quite a few of you who had c-sections and I want to know if you decided to have a vbac or go ahead and have another c-section. If you had a vbac and it went smoothly, I'd love to hear about it and maybe some of the things you think helped it along! Right now I'm in the mindset that I'll do a vbac, but I hate worrying about if it's going to be successful or not. It seems to always be in the back of my mind and I just don't want things to happen how they did with Damon. So feel free to leave your comments or shoot me an email or something! I just want to hear some opinions from other mom's who are in my position, or have been at one time!
Today I am 22 weeks pregnant, and I can't believe it's flying by so quick! It seems like just yesterday I found out I was expecting!
I'm really lucky that I don't get sick when I am pregnant, so this has been a breeze! With the exception of Damon trying to sit on my or elbowing/kicking my tummy, everything has been great! I'm feeling our little guy kick more and more. My placenta is on the front side of my tummy so I wasn't feeling him there for a while, but now he's definitely making sure he's known. He must know I'm talking about him right now because he's going crazy!!
Some days it doesn't even feel like I'm pregnant. When I look in the mirror, i'm surprised at how big I am getting, but i'm just glad I don't feel it! I have lots of energy and am loving spending time running around with Damon and taking him to playdates. I know I gotta take advantage of this while I can because in just a few months i'm going to be so uncomfortable. That's the stage of pregnancy I don't look forward to.
So I want to hear some opinions on delivery options. I know there are quite a few of you who had c-sections and I want to know if you decided to have a vbac or go ahead and have another c-section. If you had a vbac and it went smoothly, I'd love to hear about it and maybe some of the things you think helped it along! Right now I'm in the mindset that I'll do a vbac, but I hate worrying about if it's going to be successful or not. It seems to always be in the back of my mind and I just don't want things to happen how they did with Damon. So feel free to leave your comments or shoot me an email or something! I just want to hear some opinions from other mom's who are in my position, or have been at one time!
Monday, August 8, 2011
Terrible Two's at 15 months?!
Alright Mommys! I need some serious help! I'm about to go a little bit crazy! (this post has horrible punctuation because I wrote this in like 5 minutes because I'm going nuts, so forgive me!)
Damon hates his naps, his bed time, and is throwing fits over everything!! He's always been a tough kid and never cries about anything! Now, if he falls down or doesn't get his way he throws himself on the floor and cries. He kicks his feet and even headbutts the floor! What the heck is going on? It's just been within the last week and I have no idea what's going on. He hates nap time. Or he hates his crib or something along those lines. He'll fall asleep on my lap and then as soon as I lay him down he wakes up and screams. If I hurry and leave he just cries forever and won't go back to bed. He used to just cry for a few minutes and fall right to sleep. Same thing with bed time. So I'm thinking separation anxiety or something like that. I googled it, of course, and it sounds like it's a common thing to get around his age. (15 months). It didn't really say anything in relation to the fits and not even really the sleeping except for the fact that they hate when you leave the room. SO I could use some help from your moms. I really hope this is just a phase and it'll be over soon. It's driving me crazy. He should not be giving up his naps this early! I'm not ready for that, and honestly he's not either. When he goes without his nap all day, come 6:00 he is sooo cranky and just cries because he's overtired. So I know he still needs his naps! But how do I get him to take them! Has this happened to anyone else? I need help!! Comments please!!
Damon hates his naps, his bed time, and is throwing fits over everything!! He's always been a tough kid and never cries about anything! Now, if he falls down or doesn't get his way he throws himself on the floor and cries. He kicks his feet and even headbutts the floor! What the heck is going on? It's just been within the last week and I have no idea what's going on. He hates nap time. Or he hates his crib or something along those lines. He'll fall asleep on my lap and then as soon as I lay him down he wakes up and screams. If I hurry and leave he just cries forever and won't go back to bed. He used to just cry for a few minutes and fall right to sleep. Same thing with bed time. So I'm thinking separation anxiety or something like that. I googled it, of course, and it sounds like it's a common thing to get around his age. (15 months). It didn't really say anything in relation to the fits and not even really the sleeping except for the fact that they hate when you leave the room. SO I could use some help from your moms. I really hope this is just a phase and it'll be over soon. It's driving me crazy. He should not be giving up his naps this early! I'm not ready for that, and honestly he's not either. When he goes without his nap all day, come 6:00 he is sooo cranky and just cries because he's overtired. So I know he still needs his naps! But how do I get him to take them! Has this happened to anyone else? I need help!! Comments please!!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
One year ago today, I was......
This morning I woke up and realized that today is Cinco De Mayo!!! A little over a year ago I was sitting in the Dr.'s office for my very last appointment. I was dialated to a 2 and fully effaced, so he said "Just pick a day next week and we'll induce you if you want!" Of course I wanted that! So I called Dan and asked what day and he said "let's do Cinco de Mayo, that'd be cool" So we set the day. I couldn't believe I knew the day my baby would be here, and that it was so close! So Dan and I went on our last date before we had the baby, and we just tried to enjoy the time we had before little D came to join us.
May 5th came, and went, with no baby! If you haven't read what happened, feel free to scroll down to the end of the page and check it out. It is detailed, fair warning!
1:11 on May 6th little Damon finally made his grand appearance! It was about time.
So here we are, a year later and let's just say Cinco de Mayo isn't my favorite day of the year! But May 6th is!!
I would do it all again for this sweet baby!!
May 5th came, and went, with no baby! If you haven't read what happened, feel free to scroll down to the end of the page and check it out. It is detailed, fair warning!
1:11 on May 6th little Damon finally made his grand appearance! It was about time.
So here we are, a year later and let's just say Cinco de Mayo isn't my favorite day of the year! But May 6th is!!
Monday, April 4, 2011
Baby Proof?
Is there such thing as being able to baby proof a house? Damon is getting into everything! I can't help but laugh as I pick up the same thing 50 times a day. He's such a happy little guy and is soooooo close to walking! I can't believe it. He just mastered the stairs. 2 days ago he just started crawling up them. And now he does it all the time. It takes him maybe a minute to get up all 13 steps. It's crazy! He's getting so big I can't even believe it!
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